Suddenly I am everywhere – MSN, Orkut, Facebook and now Zorpia..seems like I have become very public. However of these I like MSN (my blog) and Facebook the best. Facebook is so sober and nice place while Zorpia is not. Just the day I made my profile there giving in to the request of an old friend, I was swarmed by people, for three days I just could not figure out where I was and how I can keep all the comments & messages at bay but survival instinct made a not so computer savvy person find the settings etc. and get some peace by blocking the messages.

As for Orkut it is amazing to see people being so friendly and the moment you repose some faith in them by way of exchanging few scraps, their friends lurk at you.. no malevolent intentions intended but I would like to write an incident which especially irritated me. I am so careful about adding people, taking a look at their profiles and communities, so it embittered me.. maybe I over reacted. It really cut through me when someone by giving through my profile, and the blog link there, gave it a look lasting few seconds and passed a judgement. According to him, my posts have no substance, no soul, and that I am merely playing with words. It is just word play, he expected a great deal of me going by my profile and he feels I am merely a romantic poetess lacking soul.. anyways I should not bother about others’ judgements because I don’t judge others. It is my blog and these are my words that have come out of me, unadulterated. I don’t have to write different to show that I have a soul. My soul is intact and a very good it is! I believe so.

It is really unlike me to have so many unnecessary burdens, which I find difficult to shoulder so with one flourish I hit the keys, and delete the orkut and zorpia accounts. Life is much simple now!! I am at perfect ease!

The whole world is in grip of Pottermania. It is like as if everyone is going gaga over it because others are doing so. I have not read a single Potter and honestly, I don’t even feel inclined to.

Life is just the seasons in cycle, as the nature goes through its cycles of seasons so do our lives.. when winter is there we seek spring and summer makes us crave for the cool rains.. but if our lives were all spring, we would forget even the fact that we are alive, as we feel life and the process of living because it is interspersed with dreary gray winter and the hot flushing summer. If we got the object of desires so easily, we will not be able to relish it, if a child were to be have his each whim and fancy fulfilled, he will grow satiated too soon and will have no passions, no dreams to run after when his own biding comes. Even laughter shines best when tears accompany it.

Life is a process, sometimes we fail and other times knock at the heavenly door of success. We hope, which may be shattered in inglorious ways yet we rise and continue to nurse hopes, even if vague. Sometimes we live on dreams and other times it is realities of life that shake us out of our lackadaisical approach. Whatever may be the case, life is worth living the best way we can. After all one life is all we got! 

On another note, I am feeling lost yet… maybe I am delving too deep into the purpose of existence, some thoughts and quests have no ending, maybe it is the weather that is playing truant with my thinking, making me feel so strange or is it the feeling of ambition that has suddenly crept in me with this Psychology website. The cup of life runneth over or it doesn’t yet, unarguably life is same each day spread over days, weeks, months and years. Maybe this is what process of living is about, it is to be lived and I should stop sighing and mulling over and just let myself glide with time.